Motherhood… Life… Restoring Balance

Written By: Lara Marriott
balanceThe other day I did a pirouette in my kitchen just to make sure I could still balance a twirl like in the “olden days” when I was on the dance team. I did it, but slipped a little bit near the end. It kills me that I am not as sharp as I use to be.

My daughter loves it when I swing with her. What constitutes as me “swinging” is squishing my bottom into one of the swings and moving back and forth with my feet still touching the ground. I have lost a lot of my equilibrium since having kids, which means the earth starts moving in circles and U2’s song, “Vertigo” plays continuously in my brain until I get off!

Those are some examples of my physical balance, but how about emotional balance?

Being balanced emotionally has been an uphill battle. I am a feeler by nature so if I am happy, I am very happy. If I am sad, I am very sad. If I am angry, I am very angry. You get the idea.

Family Pic_Balance posteditedDuring the first few years of marriage, my dear, sweet, balanced, husband would encourage me to take a more reasonable approach to each situation. For a long time I had no idea what he was talking about.

With two little toddlers running around the house, always pulling me in two different directions, fighting for my attention and mental alertness, there was NO WAY I was going to stay “balanced” by the end of the day when he walked through the door from work, hoping to be greeted with a nice, clean, peaceful home where he could rest and relax! Lol!

Our outlooks on life were so different.

I saw being balanced as being a bit boring. It just wasn’t me. I enjoyed feeling things and being a “fly by the seat of her pants” kinda gal. It made life colorful. Balance, brought routine, structure and the doldrums…well until, a couple of years ago.

It has amazed me how seasoned I have become now that I am in my mid 30s. (insert a tear or two) Someone did say recently that I was still a baby. (They have no idea how meaningful their comment was to me. Insert another couple of thankful tears) ha ha.

A little over a year ago, I took a break from the glamour, or to be more accurate – the addiction of social media; 40 days to be exact, and started each day with my Jesus Calling devotional by Sarah Young devotional, a journal and bible.

I had come to the end of my anxious, frustrated rope and with the help of my dear, sweet, balanced husband (love you babe) – I sought after God.

The first couple of weeks were the worst. I felt impressed by God to get up at 5 or 6 each morning, kicking and screaming, to talk to Him. I wrote down all of my frustrations and angers. I also committed to write down what I heard His Spirit was telling me even if I wasn’t totally sure it was Him or not. I had huge computer withdrawals, which made me very grumpy, but as time went on, I actually began to crave more time with God.

I looked forward to the peace and quiet I had with my thoughts and with Him. I looked forward to hearing what He might have to say to me. By the end of the 40 days, I knew what His voice sounded like. I saw who I was through God’s eyes. He loved me just for me. Not for what I was doing for Him like singing and writing songs. Not for trying so hard to be the best mom to our kids. Not for being what my husband needed – just for being plain ol’ me.

I have come to believe living a balanced life is when you give God the first hours of your day; when you start your day saying, “Good Morning God.” Whenever I go to Him first with all of the emotions and situations brewing inside, He gives me a more objective outlook. He gives me the opportunity to release everything inside my heart into His hands trusting He will take care of it all. The weight is lifted so that I can be directed by His ways rather than my own controlling ways.

Balance is walking with Him continually throughout each day. And ya know what? It is more exciting than I ever thought it could be!

Is everyday a balanced day now that I’ve figured out a formula? No, my selfishness often gets in the way. Do you think Satan wants me to live a wonderful life? Absolutely not! But, keeping an open communication with God through the ups and downs is key to staying balanced throughout every season of life.

I’ll leave you with some scriptures. I pray you will open your heart up to God and begin a relationship, a friendship, with Him. It can happen, and it is essential to finding balance, joy and peace.

Job 37:16 “Do you know about the balancing of the clouds, that wondrous activity of Him who is perfect in knowledge?” (God knows how to bring balance to His creation)

God loves you. You are very special to Him.

Blessings,

Lara~

Proverbs 16:2 “All a person’s ways seem right in his own opinion, but the Lord evaluates the motives.”

John 16:33 “I have told you these things so that in Me (Jesus) you may have peace. In the world you have trouble and suffering, but take courage I have conquered the world.”

Philippians 4:8 “Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of respect, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if something is excellent or praiseworthy, think about these things.”

Hebrews 13:5 “Your conduct must be free from the love of money and you must be content with what you have, for he has said, ‘I will never leave you and I will never abandon you.”

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